Think About This.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Post Easter Update.


We are home after a long trek down to Texas for the holidays to see my family.  It was a bittersweet trip in that I miss my family more than words could ever say, but I also felt as though the deck was stacked against me in maintaining my very strict workout/eating plan.
 On Good Friday we loaded up at 4:30am and headed out for our extra long day of driving.  Our goal was Norman Oklahoma where we had previously booked a hotel (with a gym).  The car was packed with snacks and buckets of movies/toys for the kids to keep entertained and I was able to get some overdue reading in.  Side note:  I LOVE to read!
 At each stop the kids and I got out of the car for some squats, lunges, bench step ups, jumping jacks, etc.  It was a blast!  And it helped tremendously to get all of the wiggles out.  Never mind that we looked like a group of crazy people:)  Eating take out was especially tricky to stay within my eating plan.  For lunch I settled on a spicy chicken salad and a small chili from Wendy's.  We finally arrived to our hotel around 6:30pm (I think?!) and after getting the kids settled with a pizza dinner I headed down to the gym.  I engaged in a brisk walk on the treadmill at an intense incline for just over 30mins and then moved onto a full body workout out with free weights.  It was actually quite a well-equipped, nice and clean gym.  When I got back to the room the little people were mostly sleeping and I crawled into bed myself.  There was very little sleep that night due to the fact that we were all in one room. 
The next morning Eric took the big kids down to a full breakfast while Brielle and myself got ready and packed up.  Saturday was my warrior seeds and berries eating day so I wanted to avoid steaming piles of eggs and meats at all costs.  We finally loaded up just after 9am and made a quick stop at the grocery store to stock up on my berries.  The final dive got us to our destination right around dinner time.  That night Eric and I pulled out our gear and did a card fight for the boys to watch.  I added in some upper body.  The issues we ran into though was that they live in the middle of nowhere, the outside ground is riddled with fire ants, sharp mesquite and stinging nettle.  Their floors inside the house are all poured concrete.  So, to attempt any sort of ground work (triangle holds, shrimps, pushups, sprawls, etc) can be quite the challenge. 
Easter Sunday was a re-feed day so that I could enjoy all of the yummy foods.  I ended up eating homemade granola with raw milk for breakfast and then after church we feasted on turkey, veggies and I had a slice of tres leche cake.  Lunch was followed by extreme games of confetti eggs, chubby bunny, egg tosses, etc.  That night I walked on the treadmill for 2hrs.
Monday was another warrior eating day and we all went to a trampoline park.  It was pretty intense complete with races, mechanical bull riding and trampoline doge ball.  Dinner was plain hot dogs and raw veggies.
Tuesday was a rest day as far as activities go.  We drank iced tea and watched the chicken, fed the neighbors horses and ate simple paleo food.  That night was another long treadmill walk.
Wednesday I woke up at 4am and drove over an hour to my friend's (we went to high school together) gym in Austin.  He kicked my butt for an hour and I headed back to the homestead.  That day we went to visit another Aunt and spent the day eating delicious paleo meals of lean meats and veggies.  I also took a long nap on their couch that afternoon:)
Thursday the guys went golfing in the morning and that late  afternoon the girls headed off (sans kids) to eat my favorite restaurant La Madeline's.  French food!  I had the chicken Caesar salad, strawberries rominoff, and a small plain potato soup.  We sat and talked so long that at dinner time we headed off to eat Indian food for the first time.  I ate several items that I have no idea what they are.  But they tasted yummy!  That night was my cousin Graham's 13th birthday.  I didn't eat the chocolate cake. 
Friday morning we hit the road around 5am and made it into Kansas City.  Our hotel didn't have a gym but they had a pool with a waterslide that the kids LOVED!  I ate a warrior seed/berries diet.
Saturday We made it home around dinner time and did warrior again b/c it was so much easier than finding fast food that worked.  That night we crawled into bed at around 1030pm and I did not wake up until 4:30pm Sunday night!  The trip really wore me out. 
Now, I am back in the swing of my normal routine and feeling less stress about my food/workouts.
I weighed in on Monday and I was at 18.5% body fat.  I was so relieved all things considered.  I am sitting in 2nd place for the Chanhassen lifetime club and I am determined to get first.
Merrick is going to do body fat pinches on me tomorrow before class so we can come up with a final plan for this last week's push.  He says I am going to do a fight cut.  It's something fighters do just before they weigh in/fight.  I'm hoping to reach my goal and push into first.  I also have to write an essay about my transformation journey and submit a before and after picture by the 9th of May.  I'm nervous but I am also excited to see the end of this journey.  I already have new fitness goals for when these expire.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Pre-Easter Update

Lately, I have been so busy or so tired that anything extra has gone to the wayside.  I've been sticking to the plan that Merrick gave me (which is quite extensive/detailed) and it's been working like a charm.  It's been some of the most challenging few weeks in more ways than one.  I never expected to be this emotional or have to deal with such mental struggles. 
My last week's weigh in I was at 18.9% body fat.  Which is awesome since my goal was 17%.  Now the number is fluctuation closer to 15% for my new goal.  We will see.  My shins have been swollen and bruised to the point where I actually cried in class.  3 times.  It was really sad.  I felt like the more I tried not to the harder I cried.  I just don't like feeling weak and incapable.  It's a terrible feeling when I don't know what to do different.  Merrick has been very supportive and patient with me, so that has been helpful.  I think I have a weigh in tomorrow morning.  Actually, it's just a few hours away so I'm signing off.  I will produce a better update when it's not 2am.  I have been packing and getting everything ready for our road tri down to Texas on Friday.  Merrick gave me a revised plan while I am traveling.  I am praying I can achieve the same results I have been getting with class/gym.  Fingers crossed as we are in the final 4 weeks of our 90 day challenge. 
PS
My skinny jeans fit again!!!!